Thank you, my friend. You listened without judgement and helped me face some really difficult things. Romantic love is easy to lose. Profound friend love is a different story altogether. I will miss, adore and love you always. You were a wonderful light.
You were an unexpected, random, impossible, improbable surprise. The Gypsy was right. I had to go there.
I am hopeful time passes quickly on the swim back to happy- go- lucky, carefree and spirited. I want to write funny things again. I want to make people laugh. It's good for the soul to create mirth. It feels like home.
They say to keep busy. I hope to finish my script, FINALLY make the move I need to make and buy a house. I plan to take a surf trip to Costa Rica, visit Cuba and get up to Monterrey Bay and visit Cannery Row. I love John Steinbeck. I've never been up that far. This seems like a good time to go.
Work is about to get crazy busy with two huge challenges involving a luxury building built in a challenging area and a building that needs to be turned around. So busy, busy, busy is the key here, I guess. It's the quiet moments that are hard. That's when I start thinking and missing.
When you walked away. I was so scared to surrender to the wave. I still am! It's pretty daunting, this wave. I'm afraid of the tumbling, twisting wave of grief I'm going through. But acceptance is part of this process. Plus I fear I have reached my snot and tissue quota for the next 5 years. So I better start swimming :)
Surrender.....
Well, surrender wearing a bitchin' wetsuit. No reason NOT to be fashion forward. Yee to the FUCKING haw for that, my love! You made that happen. That alone was worth the price of admission. I thank you for this every day. Forever........
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